Thank you Homestuck

I feel odd. Like I should say something. To explain myself... This is gonna be a long one, guys. And really hard for me.


So you probably already know this, but I recently got into Homestuck. I don't even know how to start, so I'll just enclose here the video that got me into it.

I saw that and, you guys already know that I was a huge fan of anime at the time (especially One Piece), and I thought to myself that, "This is nothing like an anime." And yet, the drawing styles brought me in again and again. About a week after I still hadn't read Homestuck and yet I had watched so many videos, I knew so many inside-jokes and was mesmerized by the fanfictions about characters I didn't even know about then. My starting OTP was John/Karkat and this was before I knew anything much about them. The very same day, it changed into Dave/Karkat, because I quickly found out that John/Karkat was really mainstream and unusual pairings tickled my fancies more than the obvious ones.

Anyway, pairings aside, I started reading Homestuck around after that and it went really slow for me. I started reading it and I actually more than once thought that this isn't worth it. The text was too complicated, more so than any book I've read for school. The drawings were... not anime-ish, but they were cute, although I couldn't actually put the video above and this picture below together.

I just couldn't see how these characters could portray something so emotional as that video there.

There were many pauses I took, because I just couldn't read on. The pesterlogs were so hard to read.

 http://www.mspaintadventures.com/?s=6&p=001935

Go fucking there and push the button that says; show pesterlog. Try to read it! I mean, that shit is fucking hard to follow, especially if you know only that much about Homestuck. Some of those words are made up.

Anyway, I kept reading it. And then when I was about to give up, I found a youtube account that reads the whole Homestuck for you. I was happy and it was easier for me to finally get everything! I understood everything since the voice-actors read it out.

So then came summer and I didn't get to read or watch or anything about it. Until I actually started downloading the videos to my iPod and then I could watch it anywhere. 

Now, when summer's over, I went back to mspaintadventures and started reading it myself again. I think my vocabulary has really flown off the charts. And it makes me happy. Everything about Homestuck makes me happy.

But I've felt... bad for the last couple of weeks now. I don't know how else to explain it, but I actually acknowledge that Homestuck has taken over my life. And in a lot more suffocating way than One Piece ever did. Not in a bad way though.

You can already see where this is going, amirite?

You know there's nothing that gets between my love for One Piece, right? Well, the past few weeks, I've felt pretty ill, because I'm actually thinking that Homestuck might've passed One Piece at some point now. Because I am actually feeling emotions that I might've felt with One Piece, but... while with One Piece I feel those once every 20 episodes (sometimes more, like the Water 7 arc for example), then Homestuck gets you up in the high and never lets you fall back down again. It holds you on the edge of the seat forever. Practically, what I'm trying to say is, that once you get past the first 3 acts, you just get sucked in and... and you can never get back out of it. And if you do somehow get out of it, then you're changed for life. It changes you too much.

I guess, and this is hard for me to admit with me being a hardcore fan of OP for at least 3 years now, but Homestuck has really changed my way of thinking, more so than One Piece ever did.  It's weird. Admitting this makes me feel like I just did something illegal.

But I can't stop. I still love One Piece. Never giving up on it, but... Homestuck... I can't explain it.


 http://thankyou-homestuck.tumblr.com/

Please go to this page and read at least the first three or fours posts. Those made me want to finally write this update. Some are really emotional and I can relate.
But if you're anything like me, you'll be reading this site the rest of your night.

Homstuck really changes people.

There have been so many emotional sayings in Homestuck. Like when Dave said,
Im not a hero
My bro was
John is
Im not

Or when Eridan said,
It's hard
Being a kid and growing up
It's hard and nobody understands

It's something that I feel that I need in my life, especially right now. It helps me cope. It helps me relate. It just helps.

I'm not saying it's for everyone. Some can't handle the challenge what Homestuck brings, but to those that want to read challenging stuff and want the adventure and the feels, go ahead and start reading at mspaintadventures.com
Once you get to act 5, your life will forever be changed.

So guys...

Remember how I wrote an update using only polite language? Here's the video that inspired me.

I mean, shit, it's not that big of a deal.

Sick

...My iPod just wanted to auto-correct me. Instead of 'sick' it wanted to write 'dick'. Lol!

...I'm immature.

Also, my friends didn't want me to swear so much, so this update EXCLUSIVELY includes no cuss words (except for the lone 'male genital' one up there.) It's a one time thing only, since swearing allows me to express my FEELINGS. All of them, bro!


Anyway, to the point of this update. As you've all gathered from the title, I am sick.

It kinda sucks as I was SO ready to go to school today. Even if my voice sounded like some old molester-lady down the street (I wonder if I can actually legit go outside and ask a little boy if he wanted candy and then not get thrown in the slammer just for that voice. It'd be so creepy.) I mean, I actually studied for the tests I had today and everything.

First SEX-UP of today that happened; I slept in. Not by much, but enough to know I'll probably miss the first half of the first lesson. Where there was a test. No biggie.

I casually wake up, dress and go make some dumplings for myself.

Second sex-up of today; I chose to pick new shoes to go out with today. I should've known that they were too small for me, but I thought I could handle it.

I couldn't.

I got to maybe halfway to my school, 'til I understood that if I go on with these shoes, I will be CRAWLING back home the very next lesson. And I'd get home with a face full of dirt and mouth full of MANURE.

So I went home. And sent a message to my teach that I was sick. Not a lie, since I actually am though.


...It's weird that the sicker I am, the higher the chance of me attending school.


My throat HURTS. And I am coughing left and right. I am so URINATED OFF about this!

... SEX my immune system for dying on me when I'm in my last year. Why the POOP was I so healthy for the past 7 years, not getting sick EVER and now this BULLMANURE?! I wanted to skip school so bad in my earlier years and now when I don't WANT TO, my body says, "FORNICATE you, I'm weak and sick. Care for me, FEMALE DOG!"

What the INTERCOURSE?!

...My immune system is such a MALE GENITAL.

I feel so fdjkfbrkjfdkdflgtfdrklghJWSKDKJFGGJKSEKsjklglgn, 
Yup, I don't know. 
I should be worried about my tomorrow's tests, but I'm just so tired that I actually don't care about anything. I just hate this feeling. I'm just so indifferent. 
Did I say: I DON'T CARE?
op op op op OPPAN GANGNAM STYLE.
Nevermind.  There's nothing to write here. Nothing happens to me. 
Just boring life. 
I'm tired. 
Miss you.
Good bye. 

OPPAN GANGNAM STYLE

 
 

I´m back!!!

Hey guys, i´m back! As Anni already told you, i broke my computer and had to wait with posting until i got a new one. I have nothing new. I am bored out of my mind right now, i have been home all day because i was feeling really bad this morning. I am better now though and i am going to school tomorrow again. I miss ya all so much and i hope to see ya soon. Bye!

iOS-fucking-6

I want to punch something. I want to punch something really hard. I want to punch something so hard that I'd be afraid of me fucking up my own hand, rather than the poor object of my 'affections'.

So, the users of iSomething already know this.

iOS 6

I'd literally chew off my right arm to go back in time and stop past-me from upgrading to that software. I bet if I'd have known about it beforehand, I'd be all like, "I would rather give head to an essentially frustrated vampire that sparkles. I would rather eat Voldemort's nose. I'd read My Immortal for the rest of my life. I'd even watch Twilight for 10 hours straight... than to EVER upgrade that manure. Sorry for the poor cornerfuckers that already did it, though. Fuck, I'm a lucky nooksucker!"

Fuck, past-me, why?!

So I just spent more than half of my day trying to find walkthroughs that teach you how to downgrade it back to 5.1.1 and you know what?! I am either the stupidest motherfucker in Milky Way, or I just didn't have enough time to acquire ub3r 1337 hax0r skillz... I couldn't downgrade it.

I was kinda on a time limit though, as it was not 'my' computer that I was on, but my sister's. Since mine doesn't have iTunes... Since it runs on Ubuntu... And I have no idea how you can download anything there.

...Shit, I really am stupid, aren't I?


Anyway, let me tell you the 'BEST FUCKING THING' on the iOS 6 software.
No more YouTube.

I am 100% legit not shitting you.

The long version of why there's no more YT:
Apple ended their contract with google, because of sexual tensions taking place between those two companies. If they didn't end it then, then someone would've gotten buttfucked pretty soon. Without lube and condoms. And you just know that one of them has STDs. And because of their dark sadistic streaks, they broke up, leaving fanboys(-girls) around the globe cockblocked and unsatisfied.

Here's the tl;dr version: "We have a perfectly sound and reasonable explanation for that. It's because fuck you. Fuck you is why."

And their response to the fans' unsatisfied moans was this, "Lol, there already exists an app for YouTube and you can go to the YouTube page from safari."

Fuck you. That's like going to a strip club, asking for a lap-dance and getting your mother as the one giving it to you. It's like, essentially what you wanted, but it's still just WRONG.

I spent like 78% of my time on YouTube before the update. (The rest of 22% was spent in safari on yaoi fan fiction. Time well spent, don't you think?) and the app is such a pain in the nook, I'm not even joking.

Needless to say, I am pissed. Someone either fix my shit or shoot me in the head. Either option is favorable at the moment.

 Oh my god. I HAVE TO STUDY. But I don't feel like doing anything right now. I'm just so tired. Sooo tired. Why the fuck do we have weekends when I can't rest at all. There's so many things to do. The first one is my homework. But this is the only thing that I'm not doing.
I really hate that my life is so BORING. Yes I have so many things to do, but it's boring. Nothing happens to me (except disasters). May I barrow your life somebody?
I hope this weeke's going to be better than the previous ones.

k.

Uhh...

...There's an american sleeping in my room right now. How should I react?


But it's awesome. I was afraid my english wasn't up to par or that I'd forget EVERY-FUCKING-THING, but I can actually hold a conversation in english.

It's like... I don't even know. I feel kinda... I don't know what to feel.

Bad luck Willy

SOULJA BOY. 


MAKES SONG CALLED 'WILLY WONKA'

                                          



                                                             TOTALLY CRAP. 

 

That's me right thar

'm gonna become the bset mom ever, if I jyst wathc tish video for teh rest of my lyfe.

*best
*just
*wach
*wath
*watch
*this
*the
*life

I have to be good friend, and show you how to really cheat on an exams.

So about Choppa...

She no longer has access to her computer. It's not that bad though, as she might get it back next week or the week after that or the year after that, or so.

(Turns out she's very incompetent when it comes to electronical gadgets. Uhh... I mean... The comp was old anyway, sooo...)

Guys

I hate mondays.

LIKE SRSLY I HATE THIS FUCKING SAD FEELING.
I feel so lonely and depressed. And every day it's getting worse. Is there any reason to be happy at all? And this school. I think I'm the dumbest girl in my class. In fact I am. But sometimes even I'm suprised that HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID? It's like I don't have brains at all. In fact I don't.
And any minute, I think I'm gonna cry. And that makes me feel bad even more. I don't wanna be some weak person. But I am. And there's nothing I can do about it. And I pretty much think I'm annoying. In fact I am.
So I just fucking cry.
At least I got my teddy-bear. Because it seems like I don't have any friends left at the moment.
Ofc, people like me don't have a friends. Who even wants to bo friends with someone like me? Always complaining about something.

K.

Enrique can be your hero baaabbbyyy

Hero/Villain

I don't think heroes exist. Villains do, heroes don't.

And so, when thinking about it, it makes my decision so much harder. Would I rather be a villain, or someone without any power?

I guess we can all agree that "heroes" and villains are both very powerful. But if you're neither, then you're powerless. Because there's nothing else you CAN be. Also, strike off hero and you only have two options.

I wish I could be a hero? But I've already failed. If you haven't failed yet, then you will. It is inevitable.

As much as it pains me to say it, Luffy is not a hero. He's a pirate. He saves a lot of people, but thankfully he's not deluding himself into thinking that he's a hero, albeit very jokingly.


Why don't heroes exist? Because heroes don't let people die.

There are no heroes.

At least not in real life.





Fuck, what's with the psychological fuck-ups I've been writing about lately. I mean, I guess it's better than talking about my bed, but fuck... I get so fucking deep when winter comes. Not depressed though, maybe sad and lonely, but not depressed. I always get depressed in the summer. At least once in summer I get slapped by a panic-attack so hard I don't know which way's up and which way's left. Which triggers an emotional burst that lasts for a few days. But that's pretty much it for my emotions. Other times I a have pokerface of fucking steel! (which only gets interrupted when Ace says something funny)


Guys, what's your take on heroes?

Hello bed

I am going to sleep the FUCK out of you!

HAVE A PERFECT BIRTHDAY MARTIN! WE ALL LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH!

THOUSAND KISSES FROM US, OUR DEAR JOHN!

Emotions that make us weak

Disappointment.

I guess everyone is different, but for me there is no other emotion that makes you feel so fucking weak and powerless.

I have a fucking history with disappointment. Me and it are regular fuck-buddies, bordering on a romantic interest now. Gonna propose to that bitch and give it a fucking ring made out of paper!

No, but every time I am disappointed in someone or at something, I literally feel physically ill. If the disappointment's really strong, then I sometimes feel like my legs are gonna give out.

I felt disappointed this morning. Nothing too bad, not weak in the knees, but definitely physically ill. It's because I saw a really fucked up dream and thought that it was... Great. It wasn't. Moments later I felt like I was the biggest shitstain on a pudgy policeman's trousers.


There are other emotions that make me feel a bit weak in the knees as well. Like jealousy. I fucking hate that I'm a jealous person. Jealousy fucked with my mind once so hard (and without any lube or condoms), that I was seriously considering doing something that was really fucking inappropriate once. It gave me thoughts that were never supposed to be there! If you wanna know, I was jealous because of a person I didn't even know. Thankfully, my sister talked some sense into me.


Next very disturbing emotion is disgust. Normally it's just disgust at myself, like this morning. But compared to the last two emotions, this is actually not that bad.


Anger is a... very strong emotion as well, but instead of making you feel weak, it blinds you into thinking you're strong, which you're not. It's not really high up on my list anyway, 'cause I make it a rule for myself not to become too angry, because of the disappointment that inevitably ensues with it afterwards.


Love is certainly something, but I feel I would not give that emotion justice, should I start talking about it. I've only had crushes and a something that I THOUGHT was love, but was just jealousy of another person. I don't really know that much about love, despite how much yaoi fanfiction I read.


I would say loneliness is more of a physical state, than an emotion. Because it can only be cured by another person, unlike all the other emotions.


Sadness and depression are... very disconcerting and can cause massive damage to both you and the people around you. It's an emotion that plays on the edge of sanity and madness. You're too sane to jump out of the window just yet, but just mad enough to contemplate it or hurt yourself. Something might tip the scale dramatically though. Be it your mom, bro or even your best friend.

I went through the worst of sadness and depression. It was maddening. I remember how fucking insane I was at that time. How I was trying to crack my skull open, to break my right hand, to gouge out my eyes. It was bad, yes, but now that I got over it, I feel so... Accomplished.


But yeah, every other emotion PALES in face of disappointment. Especially if you're disappointed in someone else.


So yeah, psychological analysis over. You can start mocking me for writing such a deep entry! :)

I feel like crap right now. 

And it's not the first day. In fact, I always feel like that. What is worth a fat ugly stupid girl.

It's the first time when I write about what I really feel. And it's the first time I really know what I feel. And I feel like I'm worth nothing. Thanks to my mum, who's always saying these awful things to me without even thinking what she's saying. Thanks to my dad, he has always been there for me. And I've always known that He is happy when I go to visit him. But now I'm not that sure. He has his new woman now. Who at first was my friend. But thanks to me and my fucking behaving I'm not sure if she is anymore. And in fact my mum told me few days ago that thought that's been in my head for a long time: 'Your father don't need you anymore'. Hard but true. And thanks to me. Just because I'm me.
And I even don't want to talk about my friends. Because I feel like I just don't deserve them. Like really, some times I don't even now how to talk with them. Not sometimes. Most of the time.
In addition to that I hate myself because I can't get nothing done with anything I'm trying to do.

It's no mystery why I feel like that all the time. It's all me. I'm the one who's doing everything wrong.

I'm always trying to be positive and showing my 'happy side' everytime anyone asks me what's wrong. I'm so enogh of this. So I just writed here some things what I really feel.

Oh yes, you may think that I'm some attention seeking emo bitch right now. Go ahead.

k.

Little bit ´bout me

Hey girls!
Well, since everybody are writing about themselves, i guess i should continue with the new tradition.
So, the things you shuld know about me:
I am a hopless romantic. I cry about almoust any book i read or movie i see, it doesn´t even matter whether it has a happy or sad ending.
I like to read much, really, i do! And i love Sherlock.
I have learned flute, zither, piano and a little bit of quitar and i go to choir too, an Ace.
Im a bit of a nerd, no, actually, i´m a really big nerd, but thats OK, because my friends like me as i am and thats all that matters. I am not oposed to yaoi, though i do understand Ace´s point also(Luffy, you should try that sometime.)I guess that´s about it.
Hope to see ya soon!!!

Update!

...Yeah...

Adventure time, guys!!

So, guys, let me tell you about my adventures in my bedroom for the past half hour.

Like, I get up to start redecorating my room. Like, my bed was under the window and I really hate that place, because I hate waking up to the fucking sun shining into my sleep-deprived eyes. I'm really not a morning person, you see.

There's this nook, just big enough to fit my bed, the farthest place from my window and next to a huge-ass closet. The only obstacle is that there's a small cupboard somewhere in that general direction. So I move that cupboard in front of my door.

Then I start moving the bed. But, fuck, the shit underneath my bed is unbelievable! I mean, who the fuck would need 70 pairs of shoes!? And why the fuck are they under MY bed?! (Granted, I guess the underneath of my bed IS pretty big enough to stash away night monsters and goblins. So why not stash shoes there instead?)

Okay, got those nooksuckers out of the way and I start pushing my bed towards that PERFECT place! It would be a dream come true if it fit there!

And what do you know... It doesn't fit. It's about an inch too wide. A FUCKING INCH, I SWEAR TO GOD, NOT MORE!

So I became depressed and went to answer some comments from Ace and I saw my bro hanging out there. And I yell for him to come see the destruction of my room. And he comes in, takes a small glance around the room, nods and says, "You need help?"

I'm like, "You can't help me, the bed's too wide."

That fucking superman goes and lifts up the fucking bed and drags it into the nook. I'm just staring at that awesome display, totally not with my mouth wide open. And he's like, "Is that all?"

I'm like, "Yeah."

And then he goes to open my bedroom door... Which doesn't quite open, because the foot of my bed prevents the door from being opened more than about half a meter.

So like, he squeezed through that gap and now I'm left to wonder how the fuck can I make this destruction disappear before mom gets home from work.

Revenge Is A COLD Bitch

Like, man, see the irony? Guess who the guy on the right is?

U MAD BRO?

Heeey friends:)
And again, I have this weird feeling that I have to write something. AGAIN. Usually I don't write that much.
Probably it's school. I'm getting out of my head I think.
But actually, I kinda like this all. I mean, right now I'm having the best first school week in my life! All my classmates, they are so cool. I realy love them. Almost all of them. Okay, actually I don't love almost of them, but nevermind, these other bitches are not my problem:)
Anyway, maybe you already know, maybe not. But actually I have this boring responsibility that I have to go to the choir. But in fact I didn't made myself into these boring lessons last year because there were so many childrens. Toddlers. But this year I don't have to be with them, because I'm older now and I can sing with normall people, older people. And it's actually so cool! I mean, these boys are making jokes and doing weird noises everytime we're trying to sing something. But when we have to do something correctly then we do it. Really, I like people who can make me laugh.
And yesterday I wen't to 'JJ-street' (It's that kind of group or smth where you can learn how to dance Hip-Hop)
AND GUESS WHAT? It's all SO COOL! Oh my god, sometimes it's worth to stay alive. But yes. Have you ANY idea how much homewwork I have? Noo You don't.

Ohhh and Anni writed about herself. I guess it's my turn.
Anyway. The first thing you have to now about me is that I don't like any of this yaoi stuff that Anni likes. This is so sick. I mean. It ruins everything. I don't have anything against homosexuals but it's sick when you take 2 peoples who're NOT gays and you MAKE them into gays. It's just not normal.
Most of all I like fantasy films and books. Especially books.
Johnny Depp is my favourite actor. He's the best.
My favourite TV series is guess what? - Okay, it's Sherlock. I love these actors. I love this all. It's so brilliant.
 I also like to watch movies that makes me cry. I like almost all kind of music. And I don't hate Anni's music taste. Okay, maybe her ''new songs'' I mean Her ''new'', these songs what are 3 years old and I've listen them so much that when I hear them I'm always like: STOP IT. PLESE.But I like Phill Collins, I like Queen, The Beatles, but actually no one nows that sometimes I listen this kind of music. It's pretty embarrassing these days.
My favourite BAND is System Of A Down. It has always been. BUT I'm in love with two Angels called John and Edward. I mean I love them like a fan. They actually made my life last year. They made all my dreams come true. Jedward is not just good band. They have good songs, cool hair, but the reason why I really like them is Themselves. http://mmidagion.blogspot.com/2011/10/hetkel-elan-ma-muinasjutus-pilvedes-ja.html (this was the first time when I met them) Okay, let's go on. I like Lil Wayne. I like his voice, I like his style, and his songs. I've been listening him since I was 9. And there's no way I can stop listen his songs.
Handball is my favourite sport. But I like dancing, especially Hip-Hop and freestyle. My favourite book is (and always will be) Harry Potter. You may laugh now. But I like it.
Usually I'm verry negative. And I get upset verry easily. Just a jerk. But sometimes I'm pretty normal.
Okay, that wasn't true.
I like people who can make me laugh. I don't like people who don't understand my sarcasm. I use it a lot. Whatever, I need some sleep now. If I forgot something very important let me now.
I don't like anime. It's like cartoon..

But sometimes cartoons are great. I just don't have tome to watch them

 I don't even wanna know how many mistakes I've made. But I'm so sleepy right now. Forgive me please. 

Oh and I just have to say it. Maybe someone want's to laugh a little bit.
Anyway, today we had a small school bus. And i was the last who entered this bus. Ofc I was thinking that these bus doors are not closing themselves, obviously. Then I started pulling this little thing what was attaached the door. And then our busman started screaming:''DON'T PULL IT, IT'S CLOSING ITSELF'' But ofc it was too late and I pulled of this thing what was looking like a doorknob to me and. And guess what, I FELL OVER with this fucking thing.
LIKE SRSLY. It was so funny. I just couldn't get up, because I was laughing so hard. WHO does that? - Only me. Retarded I am.

Take care everybody

K

Hey girls

Helloo!!!
My first post ever!
I have to tell ya, i feel kinda exited about that.
Enyways, please excuse all the writing mistakes that i might make, i am little and cute enough for forgiving after all (and i am the Homless here so...)
Im sad to hear that both of you have had such bad news.
Im not trying to be impolite, but i just have to tell ya i have had a awesome start of school year this far.
I just found out today that i have a new very cute French teatcher, a male obviously, and he is ain his mid twenties i think. I have a feeling my French lessons are going to be much more interesting this year.
Other than that i have nothing new.
Hope everything is alright. Choppa :D

Fuck my fucking life

Alright so, turns out me and my lil bro are loan guarantors. Or rather, my mom is, because we're still underage. I didn't know anything about guarantors, until about 30 minutes ago.

So, okay, my dad died. But before his death he became a guarantor for some nooksucker. Signed a fucking contract that said that if the woman wouldn't pay her loan, then he'd have to. Before tonight there was nothing wrong with the loans, or rather we weren't contacted about it. We were contacted tonight. The debt is about, oh... 5000 euros. Since my dad is dead, we need to start paying for the debt. The nook whiffer herself is in Finland, doing Lord knows what!

Alright, so you should probably know that I don't really have any kind of phobias, I only have fears. But the closest things I have to a phobia are fear of ticks and a fear of loans. No, seriously, I will cry like a little bitch if I'd find a tick on me, or if I'd hear about my family paying back a loan. Like not cry too long, hence why it isn't a phobia. But like, tonight I started crying immediately after the news and stopped within the next minute, so yeah. Not a phobia.
(Also, I don't cry very easily. But... Yeah...)
But I'd never, EVER, take a loan from a bank myself. I would rather STARVE on the streets and kill myself than to EVER take a loan.


In other news, the guy I used to hate in middle school, moved over into the high school I'm going to at the moment. YAY!

Can you say worst day ever?
I certainly can.


Oh, but there was one good thing though. Today they started showing How I Met Your Mother on tv here. I watched the first episode and loved it, I'm now a fan!

I have this weird feeling right now. The feeling that I have to write something.

Okay, today was my first day of my last year in Elementary School. It was good, one of the best days so far. But as usual, there's no completely perfect things. And so was today, good but the worst. 

What is a happy day without some tears? - anyway, it was all good. My classmates, my teachers, new students.. I even liked the ceremony. But then we had to go our 'homeclass' - that's what we call it. And there were no good news at all.
Like I said, what is a happy day without some tears. What is a perfect day without one of your classmate, who's not with us because he's older brother died a few days ago. Like srsly, all I know about his brother is that his name was Kevin, he was 18, he was smiling all the time, he was making jokes everywhere, and everybody in Haljala knew him. But I still feel SO sorry.

It's all so depressing.
But it's life and apparently it goes on. 

I know, everything is right when there's something 'not okay'. That means: everything is right, always..   But in my oppinion it doesn't work with death. Death is just death. It takes everything with it. And never gives back. When you complain about the ordinary things like school and stuff like that, then it's normal, because everything has to be in balance. The bad things are here to make us appreciate the good things. But you can't say that death is here to make you appreciate life. It just isn't. People say so, but it's not true. It may teach you that you have to spend more time with your friends and family, but it doesn't give you an opposite picture. Cause there are just two opinions you're alive or you're not. And when you're alive then you have to face the death anyway.People die. Life goes on. We die. We're dead. As simply as that. 

School starts again

Well... School started!

Uhh... Kinda not sure if I'm glad or not.

I mean, it's my last year. And after that I guess it's time to find myself a university (assuming I wont fail at the exams). I'm not quite sure if I'm going to Tallinn or to Tartu. Anna wants me to go to Tartu.

Hey, Ace, are you moving to Tartu? If so, wanna rent an apartment with me and Anna?

I have weird interests

I have to lay down some of my cards here. I like anime, games, yaoi/slash, older songs (like not 15th century or smthn like that, that's Chopper's/Mirjam's area... Not that there's anything wrong with it) and I also have a pretty weird interest in morbid things.

I dislike mainstream music. Not too badly, but I mean... It can hardly be called music that they make these days. There are one or two good songs though, maybe, once in about... Six months. And Ace/Kairit, I can't listen to your music, shit, I'm sorry. Are we not friends anymore? :( <---miracle right thar.
Awesome artists/bands are Queen, Genesis, Yes, Breaking Benjamin, Mika and sometimes Linkin Park and Mindless Self Indulgence (What a variety, fuck me right?)

I like pirates. That said, I like One Piece. But sometimes it kinda gets on your nerves. Like, no one EVER actually dies, except for in the past and of course [SPOILER] Ace [SPOILER]. Also some bad guys are actually kinda really really butthurt over Luffy and his crew. I've more than once had to scream in frustration over how infuriating they are. More than that though have I had to scream because of Ace, "Fuck, Ace, why?!" I mean, you don't have a brain for just staying alive. Fucking use it! (Kairit, I'm not talking about you. Don't get your panties all up and twisted.)


I hate that I'm sometimes so controversial.

Like, I can't stand shooting games really. Modern Buttfare 3, Left 4 Dead, Halo... I just don't see the appeal.
BUT I kind of see the appeal in Dead Rising 2 and Team Fortress 2. Not enough to love them, but still, I'd give them a try.


I dislike romance stories, movies etc. I literally can't stomach romcoms or the like and thinking about reading a romance book for school makes me feel queasy.
There's an exception though and that is yaoi/slash. I can read and watch anything as long as there's enough yaoi innuendo in there.


I have morbid interests. No, I mean, I'm really fucked up in the head. (sometimes I feel like a freaktard.)
I really like to read fanfictions that are complete psychological mindfucks. That does not apply to anime though, because I can't stomach gore on screen. And again there's an exception; games. Gore in games doesn't bother me that much.
(Also gore in action animes doesn't count either. What I can't stand are Hellsing, Elfen Lied, Higurashi etc.)


Fuck me for writing such a long entry. I will hate myself for the next several weeks now. Bye.

I made a few changes in blog. Hope you guys like it.